This has been the first day that I’ve really had a chance to realise how huge is the hole in my life now that my precious girl is gone. I’ve caught myself calling for her many times, from waking up alone to inviting her to join Neelix and me in a sunbeam. I keenly miss her comforting presence on my lap when I type. Neelix asked for my lap once today, but when he does that, he wants petting and is not content to lie still.

My sweet boy is such a comfort. He’s been increasingly affectionate in this past week. My favourite new thing he does is that he doesn’t just show me his belly to rub it, but rather puts both paws around my arm to hold it in place until he’s had enough! Too cute!


I’ve been taking it easy today and working on some projects. The day started off cool, so I wrapped my electric blanket around me in the morning, but I’m now in full sun and enjoying the contrast to yesterday’s gloomy tone. Later this evening, after the dinner rush passes, I will go try the buffet, which is $5 off for ladies on Wednesdays (so $7.95), and also play the free keno. I don’t intend to give them the $10 to get the free slot play, however.

4 thoughts on “Loss

  1. Hi Rae,
    It is amazing how our fur-friends can ‘read’ us. They too are grieving when we have a loss like that. Or is that we sort of tune into them better too.
    BTW, I find myself calling my kampin’ kitty by my last dogs’ name… and she’s been gone 6-7 years now. They never leave us.
    I’m hoping you have a great buffet & win some $$’s tonight.
    Extra hugs to you & Neelix
    Take care. 🙂

  2. I know how you feel, Rae. After looking through so many old pictures of my Norma the last few days, I miss her like crazy all over again. It’s been 4 1/2 years. But I’m closer to Guiness now than ever before. Give Neelix a hug from me.

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